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A few random musings

Sun Aug 16, 2009, 7:53 AM
Recently I found myself thinking up two parodies , one of the harem dating simulation genre, the other of superheroes, namely Batman and Robin.

The basic gist of the dating sim idea was a joint idea by myself and a friend to create a visual novel that essentially trolled the player by offering a special ending on the box for the most attractive character but then having it actually not being in the game. Other aspects included a character that would reveal himself to be homosexual at the very end while another was a manipulative bastard who was blackmailing the lead character. The last character suggested was a knight in shining armour who happened to be the biggest playboy on the face of the earth. All of the males would be complete assholes/tsunderes and it would eventually be revealed that the main characters parents weren't actually killed in an accident but rather the car crash was all orchestrated staged and her parents are actually alive and well, simply teaming up with the members of the reverse harem to troll her. There was no possibility of achieving anything other than a bad end.


The superhero parody was to be set in 19th century victorian England with a sort of Batman and Robin duo, known as Alice and the Vicar, both a father and child aristocrat pair by day , vigilantes/anti-heroes armed with guns/scythes by night.
The characters were as follows:

The Vicar-A millionaire English nobleman and aristocrat living with his daughter Alice in the Victorian era London , East end. He hunts criminals and anyone else he deems unfit to live by night, binding their souls to dolls , hoping that when he collects enough spirits he can restore Alice's voice who's singing is said to be nothing short of angelic. He is cynical, sarcastic , sadistic , cruel, only showing emotion to young girls that resemble Alice from Alice in wonderland . His weapons of choice are sickles, revolvers and acidic earl grey.

The Yorkshire Yiffer-A fursuiter from modern day America who dresses up in a wolf costume and can only communicate in disgruntled barking noises , he steals kittens, puppies and other small animals to add to his collection.

The Yorkshire Rapper- A stereotypical rapper from Jazz era America with no friends , attacks through a mixture of kopera, kung-fu and rap motions. He only commits petty crimes for the purpose of gaining attention and is considered an immigrant of no so legal standing by Queen Victoria Beckham.

Rupulstillbornskin-a cross dressing, transsexual scarecrow type creature with skin as the name might imply, his fingers are frostbitten, he is hunchbacked, with a hooked wooden nose and several rows of teeth with a tongue trapped between . His quirk is that people take pity on him for his unfortunate appearance assuming he is actually good on the inside. No one who has met him lives to tell the tale.

Josh the stripper-An Irish version of Jack the ripper from Galway . he is possessed by an evil spirit which compells him to steal womens clothing, claims to be a virginity theft extraordinaire despite having never had a girlfriend. Original the spirit possessing him was that of a genuinely evil, sinister childkiller/pedophile/rapist that murdered/assaulted vicars wife and child and stole Alice's voice and soul, that spirit is probably the only truly serious antagonist in the story and the reason the Vicar turned to Vigilantism I said spirit committed these acts while in the Vicars body, meaning that the quest of our main character is also one of atonement, to fully attain Alice's forgiveness and trust which he has managed to gain a little of but she still somewhat fears him) . Said spirit only half possessed Josh and Josh's absurd personality was able to somewhat divert him.

Commissioner Garden "Warlock" Shrooms-A drug addicted parody of Sherlock Holmes and commissioner Gordon, dabbles in black magic.

Lady Vanity-A living doll of The Vicars wife and one of many vessels the evil spirits manages to possess.

The gael force- a group of Irish motorcyclists hailing from Limerick, the rest is obvious.
The Rhythmer-Parody of the riddler talks in quotes from poems/rhymes.

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  • Listening to: Guilty Gear Holy orders
  • Reading: Maus II
  • Watching: Valykria Chronicles
  • Playing: fate/stay night
  • Eating: Popcorn
  • Drinking: Fanta/club orange

Can anybody offer any recommandations?

Mon Aug 10, 2009, 1:46 PM
As you may all already know I have recently developed something of a stronger interest in western comics/graphic novels and I was hoping that through this journal I could get some recommendations on what to buy based on what I have already read.
Its worth noting I hated Dark knight returns, relied far far too much on shock value , an exagerated and overly badass/over powered batman , the simple, cluttered art, poorly layed out/distributed text and weak writing plus an overly long story made this nearly impossible to get through.

So far in course of my life I have read:
-The facts in the case of the disappearance of Miss Finch.
-Batman and judge dread die laughing
-Mr Punch
-Spirit new adventures
-I read the beano, dandy , beezer, sonic comics as a child before anyone thinks of mentioning the obvious.
-Watchmen
-All star batman and robin
-Black hole
-Violent cases
-Sandman book 5
-The last arkham
-Detective Fell
-Superman red son
-Batman the Black glove
-Batman rip
-lost at sea
-Batman-black Orchid
-Scott Pilgrim series
-Batman a death in the family
-Batman and son
-hellboy book 1
-Batman child of dreams
-2000 ad
-Batman gothic
-A bit of Dark joker.
-Batman arkham living hell
-Batman year one
-Batman-Gotham by gaslight
-Blankets
-Skim
-Catwoman when in rome
-Like a velvet glove clad in iron.
-Mouseguard 1
-Mouseguard 2
Swamp thing 3
-V for vendetta
-Mad love
-Deadpool invasion
-Superman for all seasons
-Killing Joke
-David Boring
-Batman and dracula
-Batman red rain
-Batman the man who laughs
-Batman crimson mist
-Spiderman blue.
-Battle pope
-Batman Hush
-Batman secrets
-Batman haunted knight
-Batman Dark Victory
-Batman long halloween
-Challengers of the unknown must die
-Maximum carnage
-venom vs carnage
-Coraline
-Joker
-Sandman number 10.
-The transformers energon comics
-The megaman comic
-Captain America White
-Dare devil yellow
-Batman arkham asylum
-Batman the dark knight returns
Peresepolis
-Maus I
-Maus II
-Captain America white
-Battle Pope.
-Every silent hill comic
-Wolverine and gambit victims
-Hulk grey

Thats all I can think of right now off hand. Ideally I am looking for recommandations for a good Batman, deadpool (preferably his comedic incarnation) or Iron man comics.
I'm also hoping to get more into spiderman and Iron man as well.

Thank you.

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  • Reading: Maus II
  • Watching: Valykria Chronicles
  • Playing: fate/stay night
  • Eating: Popcorn
  • Drinking: Fanta/club orange

Things I have had enough of seeing

Tue Jul 7, 2009, 11:34 AM
The following is a list of pet peeves/issues I have that constantly seem to be showing up in/relating to Japanese cartoons/comics that have begun to irritate me:

-The overused indirect kiss line.

-Subtitle vs dubbed wars, there is no such thing as every dub being bad or every sub being bad, same can be said of vice versa, not all dubs are good, not all subs are good.

-Ridiculously over hyped series such as Naruto, haruhi, gurren lagann , bleach, one piece.

-The overly conservative censorship of some Japanese childrens series by 4kids, DIC, nelvana.

-The parasitic level/sheer number of low budget comedy series which recycle the same unfunny jokes , are minimally animated, feature weak, archetypical , pedo-bait female characters, characters who look 4 years younger than they actually are/cross dress to create the idea of that. These series nearly always have a whiny , selfish, domineering female characters who acts violently towards others despite deep down finding them attractive. Such shows also feature useless male leads which recieve no development whatsoever, are popular despite having no redeeming features/looking extremely plain.
The only harem series' out there that seem to take the clichees and do things right are the adaptation of keys works and maybe magikano, in the priors case the characters are presented in a way where they are developed/human and are more than just bots/dolls, reverse harem does this too. In Magikano and girls bravo , ouran I would consider in the safe zone as they feel more like parodies of the genre.

-People who have only scene/read a few popular series and claim to be experts/die hard fans/elitists.


-Anime/manga that goes on and on infinetely , nearly every shounen anime/manga. Other shows that are actually not shallow instead get shafted.

-Series that are almost completely comprised of filler/go no where

-Most visual/light novel adaptations other than fate stay and the works by key.

-The fact 99.99 percent of comics/anime/cartoons/manga are badly drawn/written/horribly animated. I dislike a considerable amount more than I enjoy but the gems out there I do love though small in number are some are the best series I have ever experienced.

-Making a character who is clearly made to look younger, 17 or 18 years old in age only to try and use it as an excuse to avoid pedophilic connotations.

-The fact every female character must be thin, a doormat, appealing to a particular fetish and if they actually are depicted as independent/strong/battle axes it is always artificial/fake.

-series which whore out/over promote/self promote/over-advertise within the story. I want to watch/read something not be bombarded with the equivalent of a sales pitcher.

-How every single gay (male/female) relationship is treated as no more than a means to be perverse , hollow, awkward , false, non existent, only implied. I want something genuinely romantic not just another shounen-rom-com route.

-Smut series that take things far far too far to the point where they are actually worse than the worst pornography. These pander to the worst of perverts who are not satisfied with the absurdest erotica end of things and need to quench their lust with things that are designed to be as realistic as possible. I despise loveless(looking back) , aigan shounen, aigan shounen , forbidden secret garden .

-The fact seinen action stories are always shafted in favour of shounen ones.

-The girl chasing male best friend character (exceptions are sunohara and fukuyama )

-Unfinished anime that adapts only half or even less than the source material.

-The lack of complex, psychological , suspenseful, dramatic, emotionally involving, mature stories.

-There are almost no anime/manga based thrillers.

-Overpowered characters.

-Obsessive Fanbases/the stereotypical comic fan (ie the full regalia of: obese, thick glasses, neckbeard, headband, no connections to friends, family or a partner, just masturbates all day), pedophilic fans, fans who simply cannot deal with the opinions of others.

-Most stereotypical villains who want to take over the world/destroy it for no reason.

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Random journal entry

Tue May 26, 2009, 2:00 AM
Mostly updating this thing for the sake of it really as I tend to neglect it. Firstly I would like to say that I have managed to find myself another job, working as a volunteer in a clothes shop. While is is simple work with few hours , will gain me more experience and basic retail duties it is unfortunetly not the most interesting job nor do I have much to do. As the job is not normal employment I am required to still sign on at a welfare office and look for work everyday minus saturday and sunday until 6 in the evening.
Other than that I may be travelling to England, London to be more specific sometime soon with my brother and a group of friends.
Even though my interest in anime/manga/videogames/films has been waning over the past three years there are still a few out there I consider to be rare gems. I feel myself becoming more attached to western comics as of late after reading watchmen. While I had always enjoyed the old superhero cartoons/movies and still do I would always dismiss the comics more recently I have chosen to become more open minded and give them a chance. Currently I am reading Batman:Vampire and although a stupid concept it works suprisingly well as a well written story with a great narrative and art that turned out to be suprisingly detailed. Even though the pacing was fast and did leave a moment wasted it has thus far achieved (like watchmen did) more in 200-300 pages than most manga I have read. The vampire Batman comic is wonderfully gory, the grim, dark artwork helps the action sequences flow/playout nicely and the authors/artists have achieved creating a genuinely creepy/scary look at the dark knight, this approach was more adult , gritty and mature, something I feel that some of the recent batman cartoons were taking away from the franchise. I enjoyed the portrayal and depiction of Batmans transformation throughout the story.
While it is unlikely to occur, a film adaptation (not that hokey poorly animated batman vs Dracula kiddy tie in) would be something to look forward to.
The downside is that the story feels a little too short, you just don't want it to come to an end. Also this was easily my favourite image of the joker yet and speaking of him not only is he present so is killer croc, two face and even scarecrow makes an appearence along with the many vampires and Dracula himself.
I would sooner read these titles than some subtle pedo pandering crap such as K-ON (sorry fans of that series, although I enjoyed elements of the show and it an be cute/funny at times that does little to change the fact it is an anime aimed at adult males with 17 year olds who look like they are at the very most 12, not that it is the only series that does this, Maria+holic is targetting cross dressing shotacon fanatics, does it make you people feel better inside knowing Mariya is really a boy and not actually the flat chested young girl he looks like? ) .I actually was so impressed I ended up putting in an order some some other western comics aswell, Arkam asylum , battle pope and soon killing joke and sandman will be added to that list.

Never again shall I judge an anime by its title, bar its terrible name Princess tutu (and I have no fear of admitting this or imasculation) is a suprisingly good magical girl series, maybe not on the level of cardcaptor sakura, nanoha and shugo chara. The animations a little weak and the character designs unusual but it feels darker than most, often very amusing to watch too and the English and Japanese voices are quite close together. Additionally it has a nice soundtrack and I am enjoy its more surrealistic/fairytale aspects. Watching I learnt that one doesn't need to be female or knowlegable of dancing to like this. Speaking of judging anime by title I would have never thought legend of the galactic heroes would have kept me interested for more than two episodes, I am now on episode 17 and feel like I can commit to all 110. While, true it can progress very very slowly and the initial animation (though it improves) isn't fantastic there is something there that makes you want to see what is going to happen next. Yang and Reinhardht (the latter especially) are engaging and interesting characters and as far as famous science fiction epics are concerned I consider legend of the galactic heroes to be much better than the stars wars films which only had their visuals to go on. Rather than the action scenes , it was the character interaction /conversations and politics /motivations that were far more interesting.


Also read all of what was available of melty bloods manga, expected a poor drawn cash in but instead got a visually detailed, funny, entertaining series with plenty of good action and a storyline that turned out to be better/stronger/more complex than I thought it would have been which is nice to see , it would have been a shame if it had been another generic fighting game based plot. Anybody who enjoyed tsukihime should try to track the melty blood manga down. It was also welcoming to see that the manga didn't abused its comic relief to much and I quite like how type moon depict vamperism.
Out of perhaps morbid curiousity I checked out MD geist to see how awful it was and aside from some entertaining action scenes, unintentional amusement and good mecha designs, the graphic violance is tame and juvenile now, it is horribly dubbed, plotless and poorly syncronized, the animation and character designs are highly outdated and the scriptwriters must have employed a 10 year old to do the dialogue. In its day it was probably considered mansculine but today it just comes off a campish parody of itself its also cheesy as hell , even the music is terrible.
Another two shows that I experienced which were also rather weak in my opinion were mushishi and last exile. Mishishi follows a short story format for 26 episodes and does not appear to have a continuous plot,however the art and animation are of a good standard for the likes of artland and the English dub offers some very strong performances. Last Exile has some impressive animation and an acceptable voice cast, however the series relies far to much on computer/3D animation , the story moves at a slow, dull pace during the first 15 episodes, not enough is revealed to the audience and the action scenes don't make up for this. The revelations later coupled with plotholes from what I read to see if the series was worth continuing come as a disappointment and having heard there is a plot hole/some neglected information, this discourages me ever further.
Gonzo and I don't have a very good relationship, they did a good futuristic adaptation of monte cristo , the Chrono crusade anime adaptation was actually in some aspects better than the manga counterpart too and though Druaga is only average it offered some entertaining humorous moments and the series didn't suffer from going down the serious route in the second half .
Their adaptation of Bokurano (a series that seems to put a new, unique spin on the mecha genre by having a giant robot that teleports its victims inside , forces them to fight monsters then swallows the pilots spirit afterward until it is left with the last man standing) so far after the the first 14 episodes seems thoroughly enjoyable, I heard that they took many liberties with the storyline but it isn't getting any complaints from me. Though we haven't seen many of them and two characters were killed off quite quickly they still received sufficient character development, the animation could be better and could do with less of gonzo's 3D work but the character designs are more realistic than those ones would see in a moe/harem/romantic comedy series. The fights themselves don't appear to be especially intense right now but I am really liking the strong and sometimes disturbing character driven/development aspect of the series that makes up for its other current shortcomings, especially the poor animation. While the examination of the political and the media is nothing new or as interesting by comparison to the characters it fortunatly does not hold the series back. It was disappointed that towards the end the series began to lose my interest, thankfully though that was only the last couple of episodes. All of the childrens stories were well told in their own way but at least two of them were so good they may have set the bar a little too high .

Lastly, if you haven't seen the following anime yet then I feel that you are really missing out:

Mazinger/Mazinkaiser (as well as the new currently airing series): Does the juvenile super-robot thing right and much better/more entertainingly than gurren lagann. Completely disregards all sense and couldn't be more over the top , the newer series is a good update of an old classic with improved art and animation. There is a story there but its only there for the sake of it and is overshadowed by the ridiculousness nature of the show/fights/mecha designs and their ridiculously) attacks(including which more than forgives the silly and old fashioned plot of boy finds robot and is mankinds only hope to save the world from you guessed it , a mad scientist bent on taking over the world after finding robots of his own. The soundtrack to the franchise was always a strong point and it continues to be here. Above all else the series is light entertainment at its purest and best for and is downright fun to watch. The bad guys pathetic as they are are actually rather creative , a flying black guy with sunglasses and a suit, a transgendered sadistic mummy and a headless nazi. Additionally it can be extremely funny to watch, whether this is intenional or not I do not know. Subtitles aren't needed to watch this either.

Another currently ongoing series scheduled for a movie in a few weeks is east of eden which not only provides strong animation and character design and top quality voice overs (and even a bilingual first episode) but also mixes a mature romance into the story while also including elements of thriller. It brings up issues such as the environment and unemployment and has an original storyline behind it. Sometimes it gets a little boring and while the romantic aspect is good , the other elements of the story such as the lead male are far more interesting.
The story involves a man who may have been a terrorist/secret agent that is said to have paticipated in a missile attack that didn't kill anyone , killing/abandoning a group of unemployed people, taking part in brainwashing as well as a game involving 12 participents given the task to change the world, everyone gets a large sum of money but they must not spend it all or selfishly use it nor can they desert the game, if they do so they will be executed. Also.. Diana Shiratori...a villain that must be seen to be believed, all men should be thankful that she is just a cartoon.

While I dislike the genre I actually found a harem series I quite enjoy, it seems seinen harems are better than shounen ones, I loved Magikano but I find myself also throughly enjoying onihime, the story of boy who sells his life to demons who will consume his heart within a year. They are to protect him from other demons until his time is up. The series is different from the usual harem as it is actually funny, the females aren't 15 year olds that look like they are 12 , they are well developed women, the art is very detailed and this is one harem that tries to be something else and actually succeeds, the action sequences in this manga are excellent. There are archetypes but these characters entertain more than annoy and I'm sure its not just me but I am happy to see a harem series where the females are present in a strong way.

After having not being bothered doing so I checked out sword of the stranger, it is true what people are saying, the art and animation actually succeed in being even stronger than that featured in episodes of kara no kyokai and let me tell you that was some breathtaking animation at that. From the first 15 minutes of the film I can gather that this wasn't trying to be anything more than an actioneer, however the fights seemed to have more than made up for a film I saw as having little in the ways of plot.
I could not find any information on the Japanese voice actors nor am I familiar with them so it is possible they are all first timers and if that is the case they've done a jolly good job despite lacking in experience. As the film went on I found myself bored by the scenes which depicted the samurai and the young boy together , the movie does not hold the viewers interest as well as it could between the plentiful, intense fights. The story itself turned out to be acceptable for an action film.
The highlight of the movie was seeing a welsh corgi puppy actually take part in some of the combat, that was not only entertaining but cute and amusing as well.

I was pleasentlty suprised by Tetragammon labyrith after reading the first volume last night to the point where I went out and ordered all of the currently available and upcoming volumes.Its a bit cheesy with the villains and dialogue but the art is highly detailed and the author tells a fast paced and interesting story while developing his main protagonists, the art allows still frame drawn battles to have roughly the same impact as those that are animated. Though while the yuri/shojo ai is welcome it isn't the focus nor is it enough.
I am always on lookout for tasteful, focused , non-explicit , platonic relationships between female characters in fiction especially those that involve the characters being co-dependent on each other/protecting each other/a stronger character protecting a weaker character. Any sexual relationships I would prefer to be treated as romantic rather than erotic. While we're on the subject of shojo-ai/yuri would it be just so much better if negima had less fanservice and was limited to just a light yuri/shojo ai series centred around magical girl themes and placing the primary attention on konoka and setsuna. All of the characters could age by five years after transforming and combat demons/monsters or something and the battles bring the characters closer together.


Also sorry for dragging this out so long but...Jebus...if you've never read count cain/god child do so now, despite the art style being a bit of a disappointment and myself not being gay (it have shounen ai themes)I feel the series has exceptionally impressive characterization, excellent pacing, is very plentiful in its content (12 volumes , long chapters and very rich in dialogue). It features both episodic moments aswell as a strong continuity and draws inspiration from fairytales/rhymes . The series offers plenty of mysteries, intrigue, interesting characters and a well paced, well written consistant story that is hard to put down and leaves you in a hurry to read whats coming in the next chapter, pretty exciting stuff, the seemingly endlrss number of plot twists and developments in the series add to this. In short its a very engaging manga. Having finished it as of this sentance I will go as far as saying that this is not only my favourite shojo series but my favourite series to ever come from Japan , yes I love this possibly even more than code geass. I feel that it is now compulsory for me to track down and read Kaori Yukis other works, including angel sanctuary.
I am sorry that I took so long to experience such an incredible series and dismissed it at first glance/so many times on the assumption it was a yaoi fanservice story. It was exciting, commpletely unpredictable , compelling and addictive enough for me to read the entire series in one week (sometimes three volumes in one sitting). There were no loose ends/plotholes from what I could see either. I am difficult to impress and I read/watch alot of series that do very little for me but Count cain was a manga that while reading I understood I was continuing not simply to kill time/out of completion but out of sheer enjoyment. I can't recommend it enough. Don't be put off by the yaoi undertones, if you do you are going to be passing up on what in my personal opinion is nothing short of a masterpiece. My complaints? Very few, perhaps the dialogue became overwhelming at times , not every one of the mysteries cain solves are interesting, there were many historical exagerrations,it felt more like a novel and the pages felt a little crowded. I was happy to see elements of action and amusing humor injected into the series as well.

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A rant of sorts *NSFW*

Sun Apr 5, 2009, 7:10 PM
Now before I begin I would just like to say that I have absolutely nothing against depictions of sex if used for romantic purposes/drama, fanservice I agree can be very funny sometimes as can the odd crude/sexist humor. I don't have any issues with abuse being used for the purpose of creating a sense of emotional involvement/tragedy/sympathy and I can take fictionalized consentual sex for the larger part more than most perhaps . Rape can often be a good theme for showing how much of a bastard a character can be aswell . However...what I will not and cannot take is when these things are played for no purpose other than to be either downright out of place/pointless/for shock value/smut/sexual gratifification in this case I am mostly dealing with the issue of sexual abuse. It is a very very hard thing to do to make me cry/feel disturbed/upset by sexual content , okay it may irritate/annoy me/make me feel jealous/resentful/bored/confused. Alot of hentai/ecchi/fanservice can be rather tame/too ridiculous to be shocked by/take seriously in general to be frightening . I'll admit some of it is starting to make me feel uncomfortable to the point of anger/frustration but nothing infuriates me more when some people feel that they just have to take things a step even further , dismissing over the top sexual shenanigans in favor of arousing twisted readers/viewers by trying to emulate reality as much a humanly possible. This is where even someone like I can be reduced to a situation where my body shakes/I choke up/begin to cry/a chill is sent down my spine . The material in question isn't even hentai and it succeeds in being more horrifying than anything that would fall under that category. If you have ever read anything by Osakabe Mashin (and if not I really urge you not to because even someone as iron willed as I was unable to deal with the contents of her works). I can pretend to act tough all I want about something all I want but this was just too much (I eventually ended up shedding tears over it mind you) , treating/depicting small girls as dolls dependant on their abusers who raised them/specifically/took them in/built up a sense of trust-love and placing them in a situation/world where there is no escape, where they suffer at every corner and everyone seems to be motivated to subject them to some kind of nightmarish scenario is not my idea of fun. Such things will only appeal to the very very lowest common donominator of humanity , it saddens me that someone out there considers this their ultimate fantasy.
In one of the stories I read I had the misfortune of seeing my ideal image of a child put through an ordeal that I don't wish to further elaborate on, the whole time all I could think of was my future child alone in the world and suffering I wanted nothing more than to rescue/protect/save this poor girl. It is true yes that I consider a certain type of child to be a very beautiful thing and would very much like to raise a child that meets my preferred qualities but never..never once did I attach annything other than a parental affection to that and it sickens me to see what should be a pleasent older bother/father/daughter/guardian/child relationship distorted into some sort of criminals wet dream.

I'm sorry for this outburst/rant but I needed to get this off my chest.
Over the past couple of years some other experiences with unsavoury people and an exposure to some particularly disgusting anime/manga when I was still very young to this day I find myself dealing with uncontrollable random thoughts I would rather not have of grotesque violence, rape, slavery, murder, gore, torture and pedophilia. Sometimes I am scared and nervous around women and young children because of what I have seen/read can at times lead me to visualize such things happening to those in front of me. This is one of the reasons I am so afraid of having children/bathing/changing one. Whats worse is that I nearly always end up imagining a version of myself commiting these cruel acts on others. I have no desire to do these things in fantasy setting and certainly not in reality.

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