For the past number of days, today included I have felt somewhat choked up or feel compelled to cry. The fact of the matter is that I am not upset by anything. I have put this down to a number of possible reasons.

I was thinking back to when I first watched Cardcaptor sakura and read/viewed oh my goddess and remembered how no matter how many times I watch them again it will never be as special as the first time I experienced them, it disapoints me that I cannot recapture this feeling. Both series were early introductions for me to Japanese comics and cartoons , everything else I have seen after that simply was not as special as that first time, my first encounter with Japanese anime and manga. They were also the first series' where I found a fictional character attractive.
I saddens me somewhat that I look back on cardcaptor sakura and feel that I do not like it as much as I did when I was little, Going back while I don't hate the Japanese or English voices by any means, they just aren't as great as I remembered. I have memories of thinking that the censoring in the English version was too excessive but now it doesn't seem to trouble me , in addition to that I feel as if I wasn't really missing out on much in the Japanese version anymore. I fear that if I rewatch any more of this series or look into anything to do with it again for a long period of time(The same applies to oh my goddess) I may end up hating it or destroying my fond childhood memories.
For now I am happy talking about what I adored/remember about both series when I was younger along with the memories I associate with them so I think I will leave it at that for the time being. At the same time I have felt compelled to or have had a strong desire to get back into those old classics again.
It isn't just anime/manga related memories I associate with these series but also the times of my life when I watched/read them, the people who enjoyed them with me, how they inspired me greatly, as well the places where I was looking at those series' .
Maybe these feelings I have come from the fact I am being overly nostalgiac, miss my childhood, want to turn back the clock, perhaps I have finally simply realised that I am an adult and have grown up.
Alternatively it could be that I am still a little pissed off that some of my favourite clothes got ruined earlier.
Another theory I have is that this could be my emotions bursting out, by in large feelings/emotions don't come naturally for me like they would for others.

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